Embodiment is better than achievement. | Reflecting on my wildest dream coming true


I live in the beautiful coastal town of Florence, Oregon.

I live in the forest at the base of a mountain, across from a lake, just 2 miles from the ocean.
For those of you who didn’t know- that’s been my dream for over 10 years- ask my Tumblr! Ha!


But despite the dream come true…

and despite the peace and quiet of nature, I found my inner voice absolutely restless…
and relentlessly cruel and critical.

I couldn’t relax. Beautiful ocean views, amazing coffee overlooking the stunning Suislaw river… morning and evening meditations on the dock at the lake… Falling asleep to the sounds of the forest…

My RV home is beautiful inside, with little bundles of coze and life in every corner. Live plants, fruits and vegetables, my herbs in such abundance… A glowy little owl lamp… Salt lamps and candleholders everywhere. Crystals. It’s not about the bells and whistles, but it really is a divine and cozy space I’ve created for myself.

It’s exactly what I wanted all along- a safe space to do my heart’s work. Write.

Share. Tell my story. Share in tales with others. To create, feel, love, and connect with an open heart. To live in my truth in a way that empowers my loving instincts, rather than my fearful ones.

So, if it’s so perfect in this dream come true…

“How come I still can’t be happy?”

The question kept hitting a frustrated wall, until it finally clicked yesterday. Lots has been swirling around in my mind lately… but the one thing I kept coming back to was that I wanted to be living a certain WAY. Not in a certain place (though that was part of the dream, it was only a fraction of it). I wanted to embody an entirely new state of BEING. And that didn’t just click into place because I moved somewhere divinely beautiful.

So… I reached out to a few of the most incredible spiritual babes I know for support.

I brought in some backup accountability from a coach I’m working with- she’s going to help me stick to my morning routine plan!

Because what I realized was that it wasn’t enough just to take a massive and potentially scary leap into the unknown- I had to EMBODY all that I wanted to be, and I had to do it again. Over and over. Consistently, every minute of every day. (And if you read that like OHMYGOD NO PRESSURE?!, don’t worry! I know it’s not about being perfect. It’s just the importance of presence in the moment that I’m getting at. Conscious embodiment is a lifelong journey, not a one-and-done decision.)

I realized I needed discipline in order to really be who I want to be.

And that started with my morning routine, so that I was consciously choosing my state of mind and my actions from the moment I wake up in the morning.

There’s so much more to say about my first week, but I’m going to leave us at this.

In case you can relate to needing discipline and understanding the importance of embodying in every moment…

I want to share some of the starting places that help me to refocus without feeling overwhelmed and giving up on the change and habit I am creating in my life.

  • Morning routine (like I said)

  • Beverage choices (I ask myself if it brings me closer to or further from the person I’d like to be. How would she live? What would she drink? Probably more water and less sugary coffees, so I opt for that more often.)

  • Meals (I started with just breakfast- fully embodying who I aim to be, I opt for something earthy and in season. Oatmeal with pumpkin and raisins lately.)

  • Sleep habits

  • How I treat my body (I like to notice how my fur babies move their bodies, and ask myself if I’ve shaken things off, stretched my hips and shoulders, etc. as I see them doing it. For some people an intense workout might be more like it, but I aim for flowing, grounding, nourishing movement at the moment.)

One final thing I’ve been working on adjusting in my new life is the way I do business!

My social media management business, Revived Socials, has been doing fantastically well these past few months- but I’m noticing that it doesn’t quite fit into my new life the way I’ve been running it. I’m longing to be teaching the skills, rather than doing the work for people… and I’m also leaning more toward the mentorship, writing, and creating that goes into THIS business that comes right from my soul. I’m a mentor behind Lilacs in Paradise, and I’ve decided to shift my focus for creating financial stability in my life to come more from Lilacs in Paradise, where my heart really thrives, than from Revived Socials- where I’m passionate, but a bit distracted from my greater purpose and passion.

What I do here isn’t like typical coaching (if there is such a thing). I don’t teach people to do things, I don’t give out step-by-step blueprints to dream lives. I hold space, I ask a lot of questions, I listen with so much love, and then I play with you in the ideas and concepts that surface. I’ll offer a unique perspective, a space to just talk through things. (Does anyone else ever figure things out not because they asked for help, but because the word-vomit that came out after asking for help actually answered the original question? I’m the queen of that, and while I am here to help- I also really love supporting you while you explore you own truths and answers. Sometimes we have so many we just need to talk it through to understand which truth really works for us. That’s totally normal, and really fun when you let it be!)

This unique perspective and gentle approach is why people ages 19 to 63 have worked with me as a mentor.

It’s not about pride, it’s not about anyone being better than the other or needing help because you’re incapable. This sort of support is a space for inner growth. It’s spiritual in a sense that you can bring as much meaning, depth, and soul to it as your heart desires. It’s empowering in that it’s a safe space to bring your all to- a space to dive into the depths of ego, to play with dreams and explore potential, to sooth and nurture wounds of the past... to find the spark of playfulness and light you’ve been missing.

If you’d like to learn more about mentorship opportunities with me, there is more information here.

I hope this post has been helpful! I’ll be back soon with more thoughts and ponderings!

Have a beautiful day!


P.S. I have a new book coming soon! Follow me on Instagram @silenceofthelilacs for sneak peeks and updates (plus photos around my beautiful home)!

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